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This blog are the musings and rambling of author Leslie L. Smith. 

To Everyone Who Wants The Story of AIDS to Finally End

This is an open letter to ask that you help get the word about the messages contained within my novel.  Whether you read or buy the book is irrelevant.  Its message is what you need to share, now and loudly.  Writing this book took over a decade.  It took all those years, not just because it was a process in which I had to make sense the horrible losses of many friends to AIDS, and loss of my mother who lost a five-year battle to Cancer, the year after the AIDS crisis had “ended.”   In spite of all that loss, what I most needed to explore was what I lived as soon as the “crisis” was over.

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Governor Cuomo V. The Supreme Court!

I highly doubt Governor Andrew Cuomo has read my novel, but his recent announcement of a three-point plan called “Bending The Curve,” reads like he has.  At the very least, Cuomo is listening to AIDS activists in a way that few politicians (outside of President Obama), have listened in the past two decades.   His announcement of the plan, outlined in the New York Times last week, on Gay Pride was clearly an appeal to gay male voters, but I say, if any politician wants to pander with a bold move like this, then let them appeal away.  I for one, am grateful to see someone at a state level stepping up to the call for an AIDS Free Generation.

But I have to point out that even the New York Times coverage makes the plan seem PrEP-centered.  His plan involves more than just getting HIV Negative men to take PrEP.  It works because it is holistic, and attempts to provide for all.  In addition to PrEP, it also uses state money to find HIV positive people who are unaware of their status and to get them into effective treatment.  It also helps pay for effective treatment for people who are positive but can’t afford medication that suppresses their viral load and keep them undetectable.  

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My recent interview on The Frank DeCaro Show on OutQ - SiriusXM Radio

This blog post is a video that we pulled together to accompany the audio tack of my recent interview on The Frank DeCaro Show. The interview was conducted by the show's regular guest host, Dennis Hensley, as Frank was traveling to NYC for gay pride.  Dennis and Frank are both old friends of mine, so when I got an email from Dennis, asking if I could join him on the air the next day,  I jumped at the chance. 

At Sirius/XM, the offices and studios were bustling with the amazing energy that I remember NYC to be all about, a guy in a suit standing next to a guy in shorts and flip-flops, each in line for the same bathroom stall, each anxious to get through the line fast enough to stay on schedule.  I was thrilled to finally see the infamous “Rainbow Room” at Sirius/XM OutQ radio....

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Why Today, June 27th, is No Ordinary Day

Today is June 27th. It is and average day leading into prime time summer summer.   And due to the lingering cold, summer started late this year.  Today, you probably want to cut your work day short, enjoy an ice cream from a Mr. Softee truck, hit the beach or the park, spend time with your kids, or do any one of a thousand things that go with the season we all love to enjoy. 

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On My Tattoo, Part One (Because I have Two).

I am going to take a break from the AIDS and HIV prevention in today’s blog, because I am much more than just an HIV + man.  I often found myself frustrated with the gay community’s amazing ability to weaken itself with subdivision, as if being white, gay, and HIV+ were not enough to separate me from the whole of humanity, I am also expected to be identify as a “long-term survivor,” “over-forty,” “hairy,” “bearish,” and now expected much more than I am comfortable with, a “Daddy.”  And make no mistake I recognize all to well the safety and comforts that are found in the subdividing “sameness”.  They are powerful tools in making a community and creating empowerment for in individual.  But there is an inherent dichotomy in that as well.      

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Highly Offensive Pornographer Paul Morris Has It Partially Right, But VERY Twisted.

To his benefit I might add. 

Paul Morris and his company Treasure Island Media have made and/or distributed over 145 controversial porn movies, all of which (I think) center around the exchange of fluids between sexual partners.  His most recent film, Viral Load, is reported to feature the exchange of positive semen into negative men, and has some calling to make his films illegal.  I have not seen the film, but I have seen and do own some of his earlier work. 

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Why I Often Say Testing HIV Positive Was The Best Thing That Ever Happened to Me

Recently I was called on the carpet for making statements that seem at odds.  I am a staunch advocate for using PrEP, condoms and any other new recourse that can be used to stop the spread of HIV.  But in my 1993 one man theatrical show, Finding My Voice On The “F”-Train, and in several blog posts, I have suggested that testing HIV+ was the best thing that ever happened to me — because it gave me the freedom to live my life on my own terms.  

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Things I Thought I’d Never See

June 5th of 2014 was the first ever National HIV/AIDS Long Term Survivors Day.  While many organizations around the world took part, the day itself was organized by the San Francisco based Let’s Kick Ass, the largest and most vocal group of Long Term HIV/AIDS survivors.  They regularly provide events and panels to create a community that empower those of us who survived the worst of AIDS and are still kicking.  (The organization likes to suggest a more purposeful kick, so yes pun was intended).  The organization of this commemorative day was moving and powerful for me, as it was for many others around the country and world, especially since many of us have felt our stories became irrelevant to those around us once effective treatments became a reality. 

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My Birthday Reminds Me of Why I Support the Use of PrEP

June 3rd was my 45th birthday.  When I tested positive at the age of 20, I was told that if I was lucky, I might live two years.  My mother spent a few years preparing herself, and agreed to make my final arrangements according to my wishes, not hers.  It was the most loving and parental thing either of my parents ever did for me.  Then she got a mild form of cancer. Even then no one in my family, or in the medical community, expected that I would out live her.  But every three months for eight years, I went to the doctor and my life expectancy was raised by exactly three months.  

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My Own Mistakes

I have now lived with HIV for more than half my life, and if my doctors are correct about my seroconversion sickness at age eighteen, it has been for more than a quarter-century. A lot has changed since then. But not all changes have been easy to process. 

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When Heroes Fall

As I wrote my novel Sally Field, not a day went by that I didn’t remind myself of Larry Kramer’s work, and what an important impact his play The Normal Heart had on an entire generation. So you can imagine my dismay to learn that in a New York Times profile this past Wednesday, Larry Kramer called users of PrEP “cowards.”

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David vs. Leslie

Sally Field Can Play The Transsexual is a work of fiction. So is its main character David. But the book contains many pieces from my own story, and I think it is important to go on the record as to the parallels. I will do that in this blog in bits and pieces.

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